Lo and behold....

2005-07-15T00:06:00.000-04:00

smiling baby after 1st swin in penage

2005-07-15T00:05:00.000-04:00

hughie with luke

2005-07-15T00:02:00.000-04:00

5 weeks

2005-07-15T00:01:00.000-04:00

cool outfit

2005-07-04T21:49:00.000-04:00

day 1, 5:30am

2005-07-04T21:48:00.000-04:00

proud auntie at 5:30am after no sleep

2005-07-04T21:47:00.000-04:00

1 week

2005-07-04T21:45:00.000-04:00

2 weeks

2005-07-04T21:44:00.000-04:00

3 weeks

2005-07-04T21:43:00.000-04:00

baby hughie, one month old

2005-07-04T21:34:00.000-04:00

an update just for Liam :)

besides little hughie tho, there is not much to say. my nephew, Hugh Parker Campbell, was born at 4:57am on June 3rd. and he was (and is) absolutely perfect. it's amazing how much i love him, from the moment he was put in my arms just 30 minutes old. i am going to have a very hard time leaving him in the fall, and likely even harder when i leave for a year in australia after christmas.

just lotsa baby stuff, and going to camp any chance i get. vic was up this past weekend which was so awesome, and some friends are coming up the end of this week. maybe a weekend in the 'loo, and then lexie's camp in august and there goes the summer!!

2005-05-17T10:36:00.000-04:00

I think the blog is dead.

at least until I go travelling or something

2005-05-13T09:56:00.000-04:00

Have internet in North Bay now. Feeling slightly more connected. Have not posted as I haven't been doing too much. Cooking, cleaning, getting the nursery ready, going to the gym, and catering to any whim of my 9-month pregnant sister. Joel is still not home for another week, so we're hoping that little Hughie delays his entrance to the world. (but only for Joel's sake - Kendra is uncomfortable and ready to be done with being pregnant, and I am kinda bored and want my nephew here!!!)

Going to Waterloo for one night, and then to Brooks' for one night this weekend. Will be awesome to see people. ANd drink beer. I feel bad having any here since Kendra would kill for an MGD.

Gotta pack and get ready to go.

2005-05-03T16:14:00.000-04:00

will be off-line for a bit. don't have net set up at my sister yet

am starting the job hunt. slowly :)

2005-05-01T23:58:00.000-04:00

this is funny. altho in canada i think the football references should be changed to hockey

off to bed.

before midnight

can my body handle the shock of sleep?

2005-04-30T13:23:00.000-04:00

Oops! I forgot that I hadn't told daddy about my haircut. He knew I'd gone to shoulder length, but not even shorter again. Dad has a thing for long hair, like he has a thing for girls in jeans (specifically Levi red tabs, but that's flexible) and everyone wearing belts. All of my friends who have met my dad have been pre-warned about the belt rule. When KK and I were kids, we had to practically lift our shirts up before leaving the house so he could make sure we had belts on.

So my hair is just barely able to be pinned up and back, and when I took it out and daddy flipped out!

Anyway, we are doing family shopping today. Kendra is just huge. She is ready to go at any second, I am sure. Little Hughie is kicking up a storm - you can actually see his limbs pressed against her. It's amazing. I am SO excited to be an aunt. Auntie Lo :)

2005-04-27T18:07:00.000-04:00

there are some boxes i rarely open and just keep moving from place to place. not so today. i am opening them all. and laughing my ass off. i have ticket stubs from movies mark and i went to in highschool. i found hannah and luke's wedding card that apparently i never gave them (3 yrs ago). exams and papers from first year. course notes from EVERY term. clothes that i haven't worn since highschool. insane.

so i am throwing stuff out. altho it's kinda wierd - i mean, some of the stuff obviously meant sooo much to me at some point. now i am just tossing it. should i still care about some of it??

2005-04-27T17:01:00.000-04:00

it's done

time for beer

2005-04-27T10:09:00.000-04:00

I don't know if I have ever wanted anything so badly as I want to be done now. Like, NOW- not in 5 or 6 hours. I am starting to fade quickly- I would love to crawl into bed and spend the day there. I would love for this to finish itself, and then start packing up my stuff. Haha. I am becoming crazy from no sleep I think.

2005-04-27T01:01:00.000-04:00

I always seem to get to this point where I only have a day left and don't think it's humanly possible to get whatever done. And I am feeling that way now. I have an introduction written, but as I look through chapter 2 for referencing, I'm noticing shitty sentences and paragraphs and sections to change, and thus the entire process is taking WAYWAY longer then I thought. And referencing has barely begun. ANd no conclusion is written.

ANd I took a break tonight to bake cookies. I wouldn't have, since the boys aren't home to eat them, but I promised Ben I would teach him. As he gets further and further into engineering he's realizing he, also, wants to be the stay at home wife, and therefore needs some of the wife-y skills. So we baked. ANd I used a new recipe and they are fabulous.

But here I sit, with 15 hours til done-time, and am feeling overwhelmed.

On a happy note tho, the 55% -shitty -ass -piece -of -crap -he -should -fail -me paper actually didn't go as bad as I thought. I mean, he totally gave it to me b/c he felt sorry for me I think due to missed class/surgery and stuff, but whatever. I passed the class, and with a B- at that. How is it possible? I'm flipping b/w feeling guilty b/c I know I didn't deserve that mark, and scared that he will realize that and take it away. Hahaha. Oh, and I got 91% on my personnel selection final. Yay for an A in that class. Too bad those don't count towards my teeter-tottering average for graduating.

2005-04-26T12:45:00.000-04:00

I've had at least one tea from timmies a day for the last 4 weeks, and have NOT won anything on roll up the rim. how is that possible? shitty

2005-04-26T02:23:00.000-04:00

chapter 3 is done. like , done-done. yay. (well, besides references)

going to go to bed now for FIVE whole hours!!

2005-04-25T23:11:00.000-04:00

those ch 3 edits i was finishing up 11 hours ago? ya. still working on them. i did take a break for lunch, and then to watch '24' but still. i totally underestimated the amount of time it would take me to convert the last few pages of the chapter from point form to paragraphs. bleh

the next 40 hours might be tight to actually get this done. there may be little sleep. i may get grouchy. i just wanna be done :(

2005-04-25T12:05:00.000-04:00

just finishing up the edits for chapter 3 then starting on the introduction. then the conclusion. then fixing up all the referencing which i am too lazy to do properly while i write papers but always kick myself at the end, trying to understand what i've written and where i've gotten the info from.

yesterday jon (off-stream jon who lives in my room and sleeps in my bed) came to drop some of his stuff and we ended up hanging out and watching movies and stuff. we've hung out a few times this term and he is so fun and nice- it's too bad that he's off-stream- we'd have a blast here together i am sure.

watched grey's anatomy with chica last night. man i love that show.

went to timmies this morning to get a tea and campus is just empty. it's very strange. scheduled my last physio appt too, for tomorrow. i'm going to have to get a job that has good phsyio and massage coverage. my shoulder and back are just killing me. too many nights spent at my desk in a plastic chair i think. it's been hurting for weeks, way worse then normal. and i missed my appointment last thursday since i stayed at brooks' and his alarm clock was packed up. oops. first appt i've missed in 2 and a half years!

ok- back at'er.

2005-04-24T15:23:00.000-04:00

well it wasn't quite The Ranch, but it was good. We ended up going to Philthy's last night for Chris' birthday (Jen's Chris). And had a great time. They played a whole set of country music which was awesome, a couple Killers songs back to back, and some Wednesday Bomber classic rock. A great time. It's always a little worrying blending two groups of friends, but w/o Day and such here (who have a few issues with Jen's boyfriend, just b/c they are protective of her), it went well and I think everyone had fun. So yay.

Didn't get to sleep until after 3 (had to squeeze in an epi of Buffy before we fell asleep) so this morning was shot to hell for doing work. Breakfast at Mel's, and then did a bit of cleaning and organizing since some of the "other" housemates are moving their stuff in this week and our house has seen better days. And now am working on the thesis edits and stuff.

A few more days. I cannot wait.

2005-04-22T05:55:00.000-04:00

Jen and I got tickets to see The Killers the end of May! Yay exciting. They are totally my new favorite group!!

This paper is going nowhere. I only have 9 hours left to work on it and it's crap. And worth 55%. YIKES!!! So I need to do at least a 60 on it. Who is this person that I've become who settles for a "C"? I used to hate the idea of getting anything below a B even. Does everyone get this way at the very end? Five more days and I am outta here. Forever. Cannot wait in one respect - want to be done with this thesis like you can not believe. And kinda want to be out of this house too - it's sad all alone.

Tonight Jen, Lex, Ben, Marija and I are BBQing steaks here and getting trashed. I am taking the night off and not thinking about thesis edits and stuff until tomorrow. Yayayayay!

2005-04-21T10:49:00.000-04:00

so, around midnight i was convinced to go for a drink to celebrate exams being done, and a last hurrah with the systems kids. a drink turned out to be a pitcher at mcginnis. and then another at molly's (had to get to molly's- love that place) and then cigars at george's. and then a hot tub. and then bacon sandwiches and a movie at 6am this morning with brooks.

have just made it home. have to giv'er all day and probably all night on this paper.

and i lost $40 last night prior to any beer beig consumed. got money at the bank machine and then 5 minutes later when i sat down at the bar it was gone. couldn't find it anywhere :(

2005-04-20T21:55:00.000-04:00

and then there were 2. it's just me and derrick left

wrote spanish tonight. it went rather horribly but it's done so whatever. no more exams ever.

didn't go out for drinks last night after all. lex and ben came over and we made sundaes and watched tv instead. some of the systems and chem kids are going to phil's tonight but i don't really feel like it. i'm so no fun anymore. but friday- friday i will be done all but the thesis and am going to drink. a lot

on to the paper.

2005-04-19T18:40:00.000-04:00

daylen just left. and i can't stop crying. yes i might visit here in the fall a few times, but it will never be the same. it will never be the 5 of us in this house (day's not even living here next year). it will never be daylen and i how we are. everything is changing and i hate it and i am so incredibely sad.

i need to study more but i am going out tonight for a few drinks. i need to say goodbye to some of the systems and chem kids. and it's only my elective tomorrow night anyway. normally i would still care so much, but i don't. i can't do well on it anyway- a good chunk of it is based on movies we saw in march- the month i missed most classes.

bleh

2005-04-18T12:37:00.000-04:00

exam is over. it went ok-ish. i messed up on one question tho, which was out of 10, and worth 10% of my mark in the class. (exam was out of 40, and worth 40%) i hate exams like that - every little thing ends up being so critical to your final grade.

i studied most of the night, but managed to sleep from about 1-4:30am. going out for lunch with chica now to celebrate her being done (bitch- hahaha!) and then i'll start studying and paper writing. and maybe start job searching more too.

9 more days. i can manage.

2005-04-17T18:52:00.000-04:00

another article about my dad. well, not exactly:) it's about daddy's girls and how to date them. the article is pretty good, and spot-on a couple of times about my relationship with my dad. i could never be with someone my dad didn't like or think was good for me. he was 100% right about all of kendra's relationships - he just knew certain guys weren't 'the one' when none of us saw it. and with joel, he knew it was there. and i keep bringing home guys that he doesn't like, and that deep down i know he won't like. and i leave guys here who i think he would love. (summer 02, summer 04, etc) hmmm. i never really noticed it, but i totally do that.

haha- loved this line "her father exerts enormous, though usually subtle, influence over her life and decisions". he sure does. big decisions, bad days, etc, daddy gets the phone calls and tears, from both kendra and me. but he sometimes isn't so subtle with the influence tho - but i guess mostly when i know the decision i have to make but can't, he'll just say, "babe, you know you have to". and it's done

back to studying. there's so much for this course. and i took a break last night and went out for drinks and to a movie with vic. i really should've kept studying but he flies to sask this week and i don't know the next time i'll see him. we had a great time, sitting on a patio drinking pitchers. i love that guy. and hate all the time we missed being friends b/c of that girl who will not be named that he had the bad fortune of dating during 2nd yr. bitch. hahaha

2005-04-16T13:41:00.000-04:00

daddy is in the paper!! have a look

2005-04-16T00:11:00.000-04:00

going to sleep now. 'napped' from 5-7am this morning. and got the paper finished with about 0 minutes to spare. tried to have a quick nap this afternoon before studying began, but my kind, caring family, whom i love, interrupted. first kk called. then mom. then dad. so i gave up on the idea of sleep. it's not like i've really had it this week anway - sleeping 3:30-6:30 or 7 isn't really sleeping either. but tonight will be. until 8:30am. yay me

got a drunk-dial from an ex last night. it was fairly hilarious. i was being such a bitch (well, just myself i guess- haha) and saying how i felt about some stuff and basically cutting him up and since he was drunk i figured i didn't have to use kiddie gloves. i mean, i held back enough, but it was nice to say some of the stuff i felt. but still, ex's ask questions that you know they really don't want to know the answers to. i try and not be intentionally hurtful

off to sleep

2005-04-13T19:40:00.000-04:00

wasting time. just had a lovely dinner with neuf and day- bbq'd porkchops and beers. mmmm. first beer in a couple weeks. and it was good. to the paper now

but first, randomness b/c i'm bored:

01. Total volume of music files on my computer: 2.8 gigs. is that sick? i get bored and download like crazy

02. Last CD I bought: Lexie bought me Kenny's 'Songs From an Old Blue Chair' for my birthday. Actually bought for myself I can't remember.

03. Last song I listened to before doing this meme: The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice

04. Five songs I've been listening to a lot lately:
a. Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter
b. David Bowie - Space Oddity
c. Allison Krauss- That Kind of Love
d. Blaine Larson - How Do You Get The Lonely
e. Busted - Year 3000

that has got to be the most random ever

2005-04-13T07:25:00.000-04:00

just had the closest thing to a heart attack that one can have at 23yrs old i think. went to sleep at 3:30 leaving my laptop on (it's set to never go to sleep or anything as long as it's plugged in) and just woke up to a black screen. moved the mouse- nothing. pressed the power button- slight whirling noise then nothing. i was almost in tears. i sent ch 1 to my gmail account but not 2 or 3 since my laptop is barely a year old i didn't think i'd have any problems.

second time with the power button i got a beep, and it came alive. phew. i'm going to send everything to gmail now. man oh man oh man oh man

2005-04-12T23:58:00.000-04:00

I'm sick of my thesis topic. How the hell am I supposed to work in HR now that I can't even STAND to think about personnel selection? Bad news I tell you. And it's not going so well today- I'm stuck on the stats of some validity crap about a few of the personality tests. arrgghhh. I've barely gotten 4 pages written today. I wanted to have the last chapter complete in time for my meeting with Rich tomorrow morning. Could be an all nighter I guess.

Kenny just came home from his last exam. Yes, you read that right- he is finished!!! All 5 classes. I haven't even finished one yet - Diversity will be done with the paper Friday (that I will start tomorrow night), Personnel Selection will be done after the exam Monday, LA Civilization exam Wednesday, Human Rights with paper now due the 22nd. And after that I can finalize this damn thesis, slap on an into and conclusion and finish it. And university. I'll know tomorrow morning after seeing Rich when exactly he wants it done. The 25th would work for me - it'd give me the weekend. That will be enough time unless there are a lot of changes necessary for ch 3.

Then I will have to pack up 5 years of my life to head up North. ANd start looking for work (I'm thinking Toronto. Dunno why - I never did a co-op there and think it might be fun to live there for 8 months or so. Have a lead or 2 for jobs. maybe) But first I'll spend a little while in Sudbury, see the fam, unpack and repack and try and organize my life. Then head to the Bay where "little Hughie" will be making his appearance the 19th of May. Help out Kendra and Jolie for 2 or 3 weeks and then hopefully start a job somewhere. Hmmm.....

We'll see how that all goes. A year from now I'll be on a beach in Australia. I just keep having to repeat that to myself to stay sane. Daddy has been calling me a lot lately. Which is awesome and nice but I think it's due to my breakdown the other week- he might think I am going to slit my wrists or pack a bag and take off. So on his way home from work at night he calls me to see how it's all going and be encouraging. ( and only throw in one or 2 questions about finding a job)

back at'er

2005-04-12T01:27:00.000-04:00

i just had to move 14 books off my bed in order to sleep tonight. yes, FOURTEEN!! and i'm not even working on my bed 90% of the time- i have books on my desk for that. thankfully those don't have to get moved for sleep to occur.

and sleep is occuring tonight before 3am. not b/c i got my 8 more pages written, but because my eyes hurt so bad and i look like i've been smoking weed for a week straight!

2005-04-11T20:12:00.000-04:00

just got an email from edinburgh. paul is back from africa and therefore tonight is the first 'slippet inn' night at our place since sean and i left in december. wish i was there. erin will be home for a month this summer tho so we are going to get together. and ty comes home soon too.

want to write another 8 pages tonight. chances are slim. esp with '24' in an hour. last weeks was sooooooo good

2005-04-09T20:33:00.000-04:00

good gosh. i think i have done a little too much today. my brain is fried and my eyes are killing me from looking at the screen. i got another 8 pages written however, plus 5 pages of edits and addtional info for ch 1.

you know it's time to stop when- i was just transitioning into some of the validity issues in using personality testing in selection and honestly actually typed "it's not all hugs and puppies however". ummm, am i (hopefully) a month away from getting my degree? yes. that is SO not something that one should EVER write in a university level paper. or highschool for that matter. and even scarier- i'm fairly certain it's a buffy quote. oh man !!! hahahaha

think i'll break for an hour or 2. watch that hugh grant movie that's on tv at 9 - "about a boy". i love hugh grant. he's a bumbling english fool in every movie he makes and i just eat it up

2005-04-08T11:29:00.000-04:00

I've been downloading fun 80's songs all week, for a switch-up on my playlist. Tears For Fears, Poison, Mr Mister, Def Leppard, etc. I downloaded "Space Oddity" by David Bowie and can't help but laugh every time I hear it - when I was a kid I thought it was a song about a guy in Vietnam or something - Major Tom was "Machatong" - what I assumed was a place in Vietnam during the war. My mom still laughs at me about that one.

2005-04-06T22:30:00.000-04:00

i should've maybe planned on taking an extra term. after messing up a few courses the term after Mark and I broke up, and then dropping classes after my car accident, i have been playing catch-up almost non-stop. and that's not a great way to be your last year. i shouldn't have been doing 6 courses in the summer. i should've been concentrating on my thesis. or, i should've waited to start it this term, and continued it this summer along with another course or 2. that would've been the smart thing. but i thought that just not having a job during the term i would be ok and be able to manage. but i haven't managed. i have been doing mediocre. and that's not me. i am one of those type-a, overachiever types. at least i used to be.

i just emailed my philosophy prof to accept the paper extension he offered last week. i didn't want to take it, but i just can't manage. it's supposed to be due monday, and i'm not even done this last thesis chapter yet. i am struggling with it big-time. i emailed my advisor but he hasn't gotten back to me yet. i need to know when he wants this done. i'm hoping that the fully done with intro and conc and references won't be due until the 22nd or so. i can giv'er for the next 7 days which will get me chapter 3 done and chapter one and two edits done hopefully. then i have to write my diversity paper that's due next friday(15th). then i have to start studying for my exams on the 18th and 20th- well, catch up on 3 weeks worth of notes before i can even really start studying.

panic. i am kinda resiging myself to not getting it all done with the grades i need and having to take a course or 2 over the summer or something and then convocate in the fall. i will feel like an utter failure no matter what anyone says, but i guess i'll have to live with that

and i know i have the next week for this thesis. and that is a lot of time if i work non-stop but i feel like my writing is crap and my info is contradicting and i don't have enough to write what i had planned on writing in this chapter. so if i get it done, it just won't make the cut

i realize i'm all complainy lately, but this is my place to vent. if i start to vent to the boys it gets all muddled up with my being sad about leaving and how much i am going to miss them and then i cry and it's pathetic. PATHETIC

back at'er

2005-04-05T22:28:00.000-04:00

My laptop is on my desk today. It will remain there for the next 3 weeks. You know I'm getting down to business when. Thesis is actually going OK today. Am hammering out a few pages. They could be total crap and not get the 81 I need and thus all this stress be for not. But I am trying not to think about that. Why does a girl that does the hiring and such only get to graduate with over a 75 whereas those who are building bridges and planning mines thousands of feet underground and making things that are critical to society only need a 60 to graduate? Damn engineers ;)

2005-04-04T19:48:00.000-04:00

Wow - it's 7:50 and still light out. Big yays!

Have a free hour until "24" starts and have to do work. I am bad tho - I have a hard time settling down to get things done when I know I only have a short period of time. It's so easy to waste that time. But I can't!! I'm 37 for ~80 on the thesis, 0 for 10 on one paper and 0 for 12 on the other. Man oh man oh man oh man. It's scary to look at. But maybe not AS bad as it seems- some of the research for the above is done, just not written in proper page form yet. That doesn't make me feel much better tho.

2005-03-31T23:18:00.000-05:00

Apparently the pope has recieved last rites. I by no means claim to be a Catholic, or believe much of what they believe, but on Easter when he tried to give the blessing to the crowd in St Peter's Square and couldn't speak, I cried. Not for me, b/c any faith I may have doesn't really rest on, or require entrance through some guy. But right or wrong, he is SO vitally important to people of the Catholic religion. The pillar of strength they look to in their faith. And seeing him in that state, and seeing the reaction of the people in the square, it was just really sad.

(But on a side note, I love seeing places on TV that I have been. I stood in that square, less then 2 years ago. And my parents will stand there in the fall!)

2005-03-31T16:37:00.000-05:00

my bomber years are over. last night ended up being pretty good overall, altho i may have pushed myself a little too hard. i did almost pass out after class yesterday, but was going to go no matter what. we went early, as did everyone! basically everyone i wanted to see was there. it's funny - there are ppl i consider "bomber friends"- those that i see every week there and talk with and dance with but never socialize with outside of the bomber. and it was wierd to think last night is likely the last time i will see them.

so they were pushing a promotion - white t's and black lights and highlighters for drawing on clothes and ppl and stuff. my tee, with the pictures and sayings on it from the boys is likely rated NC-17, but i am going to keep it as it has notes from friends written on it :)

cheapest bomber night ever - i only spent $10 since i'm still not feeling 100% and didn't want to push it more by getting drunk. they played all the music i wanted to hear. graham and i were having a moment, just how much we love eachother and how he's going to miss me and i started to get all choked up and then AC/DC came on- Shook Me All Night Long. and all of us, all our friends, came from every corner of the bar to dance and sing together on the dancefloor. man i am going to miss everyone.

i had wanted to stay until close but around 12:30 i was talking with lex and chris and then all of a sudden the room spinned and seemed to go dark and my knees gave and i passed out. (but re-read paragraph above- not from drunkeness- takes more then $10 to get me falling down drunk) but chris caught me :) and then brought me home. but for just being back to class this week, and still not feeling good i made it from 7:30 - 12:30!!! yay

came home and crawled into bed by 1 only to be woken up at 3 by brooks and fonzi coming into my room to bug me! so no sleep until after 5 really.

cleaned my room today (everything on my bed - books and clothes and such- just got thrown onto the floor last night, there were dishes, papers, etc) and if brooks was saying my room was the dirtiest he's ever seen it, i know it's bad!

everyone is going out tonight to celebrate classes being over but i think i am going to stay home and work on the thesis and just chill. maybe if i'm still up later i'll go to molly's for a drink around midnight or something.

2005-03-30T12:39:00.000-05:00

last bomber tonight. last bomber forever for me personally probably. and it's sad but i feel like i have to psych myself up to go. maybe take a nap first. it's been since beginning of february i think since i've gone for a real bomber- you know, for more then an hour, and including alcohol. i should be excited. they're doing black lighting so fonzi went and bought us all white t's to write on with highlighters. i think we are doing pre-drink here and then going EARLY- like by 8. last week at 10 there was a line wrapped around the SLC. craziness. i'd rather wait inside early then spend 3 hours in line.

had class this morning. can't beleive the term is basically over.

2005-03-30T00:03:00.000-05:00

8:30am class then thesis all day makes my brain hurt.

2005-03-28T12:48:00.000-05:00

back in waterloo. came back with jeff last night. have a ton of work to do now that i am feeling better-ish. weekend at home was way too short, and had some badness but overall it was nice to see the family. meh

feeling overwhelmed by the amount of things i have to do in the next month

2005-03-25T23:18:00.000-05:00

duke lost to michigan state. shitty ass. i expected more of them this year. grrrr!! they went into half time tied at 32, but turnovers and another sub-par performance from redick, and some foul trouble just caught up with them. 78-68 final. so no final four for coach k. and the blue devils this year.

am at home now. exhausted. going to bed

2005-03-24T22:33:00.000-05:00

cuz i'm all procrastinaty....

1. What color is most reflective of you?
except for the last few weeks, i think yellow- i'm usually all bright and sunshiny :)

2. How did you get the idea for your journal name?
hmmm- i think it might have been an email from Pemma she said it or something

3. What time were you born?
i dunno - about 7pm maybe? Jan 28th, 1982

4. What song are you playing right now?
"Grey Street" by Dave Matthews live at the gorge

5. Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
Princess Diana, Ronald Reagan (his funeral)

6. What color underwear are you wearing?
pink

7. Do you want a baby?
yup, 3 of them

8. What does your dad do for a living?
he runs a mine. for awhile it was mine d in timmins, now it's the new mine going in near the sudbury airport

9. What does your mom do for a living?
she works in a dentist office part-time, and as a "domestic goddess" the rest of the time :)

10. What is your pet's name?
Tanner the man dog

11. What color are your bedsheets?
purple, cream and blue flannel

12. What was the last concert you attended?
can't remember. but chica and i are going to see tim mcgraw in august. yay!!

13. Who was with you?
...

14. What was the last movie you saw?
jen and i watched "finding neverland" last night. man i love that movie. mmm johnny depp

15. Who do you dislike most at this moment?
no one really. i harbour a continual dislike of george w.

16. What food are you craving right now?
nothing. eating still hurts

17. Did you dream last night?
ya, i wanted to go to lithuania? it was weird.

18. What was the last tv show you watched?
new show - jake in progress. uncle jessie is in it - it's not too bad actually

19. What is your fave piece of jewelry?
i recently bought a chunky silver bracelet. i like it.

20. What is to the left of you?
a bottle of nail polish

20(b). What is to the right of you?
a pillow

21. What was the last thing you ate?
a couple pieces of sauteed zuchinni

22. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
i love all my guys. a lot. they are amazing. but it's gotta be daylen. altho i'm pissed at him today. as per his usual drunken messiness, after the bar last night he wakes me up, jumps into bed and starts complaining about the fact that he's in love and is NOT currently making out with hot randoms. hahaha. except for the drunken babbling until 5am.

23. A song lyric that's in your head?
"it was good, as good goes". dave matthews - stay or leave

24. Who last im'ed you?
american much? msn'd me - lexie

25. Where is your significant other right now?
non-existant

26. Do you have a crush?
as discussed last night with graham, Dave Matthews, Keifer Sutherland, Johnny Depp. all b/c of their voices. (well, johnny's amazing scottish accent in finding neverland)

27. What is his name?
see above

28. What shampoo do you use?
i dunno. some salon stuff mom gave me at christmas

29. When was the last time you cut your hair?
3 weeks ago

30. Are you on any meds?
i'm trying to hold off on the last few percocets - for emergency's only. like maybe a 5 hour car ride tomorrow

31. Do you have a mental disease?
don't think so. hope not anyway

32. What shirt are you wearing?
long sleeved teal fitted with a cute gray shirt over. and cute teal-ish comfy pants if you were wondering. my typical outfit the last few weeks. realized last night that i've been to both blockbuster and dairy queen 3 times wearing this same outfit. hahahahaha

33. What time is it?
11:03pm

34. What color is your razor?
pink

35. What is your fave frozen treat?
strawberry sundae

36. Are you sexy?
..... yes? what the hell kind of question is that?

37. What’s your favorite shopping store?
clothes shopping is more often a pain in the ass then not. when we lived in montreal, daylen and i used to spend hours in chapters

39. Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
yup. outside in bare feet. a long way from the plans mark and i had of the traditional church wedding

ok. that's done. maybe i should pack now. leaving mid-morning to head up north

2005-03-23T18:28:00.000-05:00

i just want to pick up and go. i feel like packing my backpack, going to the airport and getting a ticket for the next plane going over any ocean to somewhere. anywhere. but i won't. i will be responsible and stay here and work my ass off to finish uni and graduate. i just am feeling so shitty still. achy and tired and weak and just not myself. and it's not doing anything good for my emotions and mental state. i'm feeling all fucked up and lost. just lost.

2005-03-22T22:14:00.000-05:00

we hurt sometimes more then we can bear
if we could live without hurt we may be able to know some kind of peace
but we would be hollow
emtpy rooms
shuttered and dark
without it, we would be truely dead

2005-03-22T02:08:00.000-05:00

managed 4 honey garlic wings and just over a pint of beer. a sad showing on any regular night, but a FEAST tonight. yay me!!

2005-03-21T22:47:00.000-05:00

I have been downloading old songs like crazy. old Metallica, Pearl Jam, Neil Young, Tom Petty, etc. And am totally obsessed with "Better Man" by Pearl Jam (1994). I've just been playing it over and over. And not wanting to be the girl in the song. Not wanting to settle for someone b/c I don't think I'll find anyone better. And not staying with a guy who is wrong for me b/c I'm not sure that there is a guy that is right for me, who will treat me the way I deserve to be treated. I dunno. I just like the song :)

Managed to clean my room and do laundry today before collapsing in exhaustion. But I had a quick nap b/c tonight is the night. WINGS!!! (and beer - I haven't had a pill in over 24 hours in preperation) I can't remember the last time I went 2 weeks without drinking anything!! We are going in a few. Yay for getting out of the house again and hopefully eating wings. Just mild or honey garlic - don't think I could handle anything too spicy.

2005-03-20T21:58:00.000-05:00

been able to manage a bit more food. yay me.

actually had a shower yesterday (as opposed to bathing in my own filth which i have been doing a lot of the last 10 days), got dressed in real, non-pyjama-y clothes, and out of the house. only as far as the school to see the engineering play, but still, it was a step. Chris was directing again and Brooks was in it so of course i had to go. it was hilarious. they did such a good job. and it was nice to get out of the house.

they boys (well, one boy i guess) tried to convince me to come to the cast party afterwards, but i declined. had i been feeling good and energetic and able to drink it would've been awesome. but no. i was at the cast party in the summer. it was a shit show. keg and batch and everyone just given'er huge. fun times tho as i recall (funner if you have the not-blogged, un-edited version. haha)

anyway, going to try a few classes this week. and i think i might go home for easter. my cousin Jeff is going from London, where he is doing his surgical residency, so that'd save me having to rent a car. it'd be nice to see the family. apparently Kendra (/the belly) is just getting huge

2005-03-19T18:17:00.000-05:00

AM: one fried egg and half a soft bagel

PM: half a bowl of rice and slimy vegetables

super YAY for getting down real food. mmmm. looking so forward to wings on monday

2005-03-18T01:53:00.000-05:00

Feeling a bit better. As I was finishing my last post, Ben showed up with mashed potatoes (which is one thing I CAN eat and have been craving but we're out of potatoes) and a bag full of DVD's. I love Ben. He had (to my screams of excitement) "Jem and the Holograms" Seasons 1&2!!! Insane! I loved that show when I was a kid. So we watched some of that, and then this BBC show called Absolutely Fabulous which is just that - and laughed our asses off (altho it hurts to laugh) He totally cheered me up. This surgery has really knocked me on my ass, but reminded me that I have some amazing friends. He's also buttering me up for his own selfish reasons - he wants me to bear his children once he finally finds a nice, young, good looking guy to support him so he can be the stay at home 'mom' and we can shop and stuff together. And I after I have my kids and then his he says he'll (meaning his husband will) pay for a tummy tuck and any other work I need done, so it suits me fine :)

2005-03-17T22:04:00.000-05:00

still hurtin' but alive. actually got out of the house yesterday to go to the dr's. yay me. hopin to feel lots better this weekend and get crackin on the thesis. another 35 or so pages to write in 3 weeks, along with 2 other papers and studying for finals. i am starting to freak out about graduating (that is, if i get the thesis done and actually am eligible). i don't think i'm ready to be gone. and there are so many people that i've just made friends with in the last few terms that i really don't want to leave. i haven't applied for jobs. i haven't thought about where i will live. or how i will live on no income. i am FREAKING OUT. don't like this at all. i am not ready to leave- especially since everyone is staying (and i mean everyone- Neuf and Jen are the only 2 friends who are done this year too, and they are both going back to their last co-op jobs, HERE in waterloo. argh!) too bad all my co-op jobs have been not here, and most of them i wouldn't even think about going back to. and the ones i would i haven't contacted in case they said yes, then i would have to start making those grown-up-y decisions that i feel unprepared for. and that's so unlike me - i am usually all over the next adventure, the new job, the next step in life. maybe this is all my percocets talking. i dunno

2005-03-14T10:11:00.000-05:00

i am alive. the surgery went well i guess. the day in the hospital was good (yay for drugs directly into my IV!!!) but i didn't expect recovery to be this bad. i feel absolutely awful- i am in such pain, can barely walk around my house on my own (poor fonzi lifted me off the floor half a dozen times over the weekend when i got too dizzy and fell), kept waking up the first 2 nights not being able to breathe (horrible feeling!!) and can't eat anything. tried to eat something saturday night when Vic was here since i was STARVING, then started throwing up and got a nosebleed. oh the joy. at least i am high most of the time and don't really care about anything.

am still hungry and feeling shitty but at least the pain is a little more isolated to my neck and face today- until now it's been hurting in my shoulders, my chest, etc/

mom and dad were here thursday until saturday which was awesome. they got to meet my friends (after 5 years they'd still only met a few), mom cleaned some of the kitchen (yay) and she cooked a big meal for the guys, and Jen and Lex and some other ppl on friday which was fun, of what i can remember. the 1st day home is a bit of a blur. and ppl keep calling me to see how i'm doing (which i appreciate) but i can barely talk and it hurts like a motherfucker.

i am bored. and hurting. and out of DVD's to watch already. ugh

2005-03-09T00:08:00.000-05:00

I finally sent Sean his stuff today. I packed it all up a month ago and meant to send it, then I waited b/c I decided I should put ALL his stuff in. As in, I had to stop wearing this one shirt of his that I loved and return that to him too. And that was a process. But I managed to get it into the box finally. And I thought that was a good step. Then, as I was waiting in line at the post office I was flipping through the pictures I'd just picked up from being developed. Pictures from Christmas to now. And there were pictures of him. It was kinda funny/ironic that as most of his stuff was leaving my life, pictures of him would make their way back in. But it's not that big a deal - I mean, there are still pics of him and our friends from Scotland up on my wall. I'm not forgetting about that part of my life and the great times- just realizing that it is over. blech. shouldn't it suck less?

2005-03-08T23:20:00.000-05:00

Some pictures from the Dominican Republic follow, as well as a few back from my bithday. I think Jen and I stand together on the 'no bathing suit pics' on the internet tho- so you don't get a great feel for the amazing tan I got. Oh well :)

2005-03-08T23:18:00.000-05:00

our room

2005-03-08T23:10:00.000-05:00

beach

2005-03-08T23:09:00.001-05:00

one of the bars we frequented

2005-03-08T23:09:00.000-05:00

2005-03-08T23:08:00.000-05:00

chica

2005-03-08T23:07:00.000-05:00

us at dinner - last day (and the hottest day EVER!!)

2005-03-08T23:06:00.000-05:00

the beach

2005-03-08T23:03:00.000-05:00

view from our room

2005-03-08T23:00:00.000-05:00

the pool at our resort - DR- Feb 2005

2005-03-08T22:59:00.000-05:00

Fonzi, Kara and Chris - Jan 28th

2005-03-08T22:49:00.000-05:00

Celebrating at the Spur - Jan 28th

2005-03-08T22:48:00.000-05:00

Celebrating at the Spur - Jan 28th

2005-03-08T22:47:00.000-05:00

Me in a cowboy hat??? Jan 28th

2005-03-08T22:46:00.000-05:00

My birthday cake made by Derrick

2005-03-08T02:09:00.000-05:00

I cut it. A lot of it. It looks good I think. Lexie and Ben agree. The guys didn't really notice- like, for hours. Brooks noticed in about 25 seconds tho - total bonus points for him - in the form of peanut butter chocolat chip cookies of course. Cuz seriously, he loves his sleep.

Feeling almost better. Still a bit sick tho. Very excited to see mommy on Thursday, but getting a little nervous for the surgery. meh

need to sleep

2005-03-05T02:52:00.000-05:00

I'm thinking of cutting my hair. Shortish- like, chin to shoulder length. The last time I went from this long to drastically short was after Mark and I broke up. Maybe it's a change of life thing. I don't know- I just feel like a switch up.

(it might have something to do with watching season 6 of Buffy)

2005-03-04T19:43:00.000-05:00

Been fighting the cold/flu since about Wednesday morning. I thought I'd just overindulged Tuesday night at Molly's first, but it hasn't gone away. Didn't Bomber on Wednesday (you know I'm really sick when!!!) but took some drugs yesterday and still managed to make a great dinner since Kroeker was coming over. Had a great visit with him.

Have spent most of today in bed. Missed my one class, but Kenny O picked up my midterm- only got a 70%. I knew I hadn't done excellently but I thought I'd done a bit better. Oh well- it doesn't count for my important average to graduate.

Just watching a movie with Lexie tonight. Want to feel better tomorrow so I can work on my thesis.

2005-02-28T02:05:00.000-05:00

I am back in the snow and the cold.

I am brown(ish) and wish I were still on the beach. We had a fab time.

I am having the night from hell with a shitload of work to do before a major presentation tomorrow. I walked in the door to the phone ringing and my group going nuts.

I am tired.

2005-02-24T09:52:00.000-05:00

OK- so the Dominican is fabulous!! The weather has been awesome, the drinks have been strong, the food has been fairly good and the waiters/bartenders have been cute and flirty. What more could a girl want???

We've been having a great time. Very relaxing tho - there is not a hard core party scene at night, but that is OK as after a long day sunning and swimming we have been fairly tired. Have a few drinks after dinner and that's it. It's been good. Tomorrow we are boating to some beautiful island and spending the day there snorkeling and stuff. I am very excited. We got an underwater camera so hopefully will get some amazing pics of fish and coral and stuff.

Anyway, not much time - I am just using the end of what Jen paid for - she had to email Chris. I, one without a boyfriend, decided to use the time to post :)

Can't believe it's already Thursday!!!!

hasta luego!

2005-02-20T03:15:00.000-05:00

it's 3am, i am not done packing, am talking to kyla and reminiscing about edinburgh, there is a party going on downstairs and i am so wired as i haven't slept a full night in a week.

went to vic's tonight and he made dinner and we watched a movie. it was fun to hang out and just chill. no bar last night either even tho i'd planned on going out.

shasta, a great friend from highschool, came to visit yesterday with her baby - he's 8 months old and SO incredibly good. they spent the afternoon here and Keysean (the baby) just was sweet and cute and the boys just fell in love and offered to babysit. shasta is more or less on her own with him, and i think could use some friends, and a break every now and then so we're all going to watch Keysean at some point. it was really good to see her - we hadn't hung out in at least 2 years.

anyway, i should nap for 2 hours - leaving at 5:30am. yay for DOMINICAN!!!

2005-02-17T20:43:00.000-05:00

A little laugh and tiny bit of stress relief. The week from hell continues. I've written 3 midterms so far (one great, one OK and one crap) and have another tomorrow afternoon and then I have to start working on (and finish) a 40 minute presentation that I have to give the day after we get back. But 3 days from right now I'll be in the Dominican!!!!!! SO EXCITED!!!

Q: Why don't they have Christmas at Western?
A: They can't find a virgin and three wise men.

Q: How do they separate the men from the boys at McMaster?
A: With a restraining order.

A severe storm rumbled through Guelph last week and destroyed the entire town: $10 worth of damage was reported.

Q: Why is it so windy in Kingston?
A: Because Queen's blows!

Q: What do you get when you drive quickly through the Lakehead campus?
A: An undergraduate degree.

Q: What's the first thing a Carleton girl does when she wakes up in the morning?
A: Walk home.

Q: How can you tell if a Trent student is a heterosexual?
A: He can outrun his roomate

Q: What does a U of T student call a Laurier student after graduation?
A: Boss.

Q: Why do they sell so many button-fly jeans in Guelph?
A: Because the sheep can hear the zippers a mile away.

Did you hear that the library at Ryerson burned down? Naturally, the students were very upset...some of the books weren't colored-in yet.

Q: Why do York graduates put a copy of their diploma in the window of their vehicles?
A: So they can park in handicap spaces.

Q: How do you get a Western grad off your front porch?
A: Pay him for the pizza.

Q: Who does the Waterloo Engineering Society fear the most?
A: Immigration.

2005-02-15T03:06:00.000-05:00

Nothing better at 3am in the morning then getting an email from a friend I haven't talked to in awhile. Kyla lived at High St in Edinburgh with us (if you look at posts from Oct-Dec, she's there) and we put eachothers email addy's in our mobiles. Well, that's not much use when I can't charge mine currently to access all the info on it. grrr! but anyway, she emailed me an hour ago and we have been catching up, emailing back and forth. It's good to talk to her. She was like a little sister to me- and man can that girl party!! She used to stay up all night with Paul, Craig and Sean while I went to bed. Well, I guess I was the only one working a 9-5.... or more like an 8-7 or so.

At some moments it just hits me how incredibly much I miss my life there. It was amazing - the place, the people. My time there was way too short. But I know going back wouldn't be the same - lots of us have moved on. But still, I think in a year or 5 we need to have a "Fall 2004 High St Hostel Reunion". That would just be craziness. The night would have to involve The 3 Slappers, Drop Kicks and Espionage, Paul and my cooking, the Slippet Inn, and so many things that made it such an amazing time. sigh

Anyway, I need to get to bed. Class in 5 hours and then a meeting, physio appt, a presentation in front of 100+ ppl, more studying, and hopefully gym time later on. Lexie and I went to the gym tonight. I haven't been running regularly, and she wanted to do back and arms too. I am going to be SORE tomorrow, but always feel so much better after I work out.

need sleep!!!

2005-02-09T03:07:00.000-05:00

Oh man - what am I doing up at 3am still trying to hammer out my thesis chapter? This whole thesis thing is just driving me insane. I was talking to Fonzi and all of a sudden I had this nervous/hysterical laughter that I couldn't stop. I feel like I am going crazy. I wanted to have chapter 2 done for tomorrow to give to Rich. Hmmm- I have another 6 hours. We shall see. I have pages and pages and pages of notes, but firstly I haven't typed any of them out yet, and secondly I have no flow. All the sections are choppy and awful.

I feel like I am losing my mind. But I need to get this thesis chapter out of the way so that I can start studying for my 4 midterms next week, and prepare my presentations.

2005-02-05T11:04:00.000-05:00

OK, so you know I have a TON of work to do if I am sitting at my desk. It's the first time this year that me and my laptop have been at the desk doing work. I do about 90% of my work on my bed. It's just way more comfortable and stuff. But I need to go hardcore today, no distractions. I meant to get up earlier, but due to circumstances beyond my control, I ended up at Molly's around midnight last night with Ben and Lexie and Day for cheap pitchers. And we were still there when the lights came on- oops- so much for a quick beer break. And due to circumstances within my control but kinda not, I didn't get to bed until about 4. Tired now, but thesis-ing like crazy. Gotta hammer out a bunch today because I think I am going for dinner with Bonnie tonight !!! :) (Kara's mom, my "other" mom)

2005-02-04T20:06:00.000-05:00

OK- I miss posting. And that's sad. But whatever- I just like ranting and rambling on here. So we'll try this again. Sean and I have come to an understanding and I think have finalized some of the lingering issues so hopefully all will be well. *hopefully*

So anyway, the prof of my Human Rights class (favorite class) had a seizure in class on Wednesday. He's an epileptic. CRAZYNESS. So class was cancelled today.

The weather has been so super nice lately that Lexie and I have been walking almost everyday, 1-1.5 hrs which has been good. Fresh air, stress relief and the chance to talk. Not that we don't talk 50 times a day anwyay - she's here b/w every class and we hang out most nights and talk on the phone and MSN. It's fairly hilarious.

Jen and I went to bomber on Wednesday which was OK. Not the best bomber but we still had fun. I came home around 1 to go over my paper that was due at 8:30am and apparently missed Brooks, Jay and Eugene who came late. Oops! ;)

Just thesis working, but SO want to do something later tonight. Dunno what tho. I have to have a chapter of my thesis (20-25pgs) done by Wednesday.... could be interesting to see how/when that gets done. I mean, I'm working on it everyday, and even going hardcore, but still seems frustrating. And I have all the other class papers and assignment to do as well. I worked like crazy Tuesday night and got a TON done, so I didn't feel bad when Brooks called around 12:30 to go for beers. Ugh- but I had to take off my pajamas and put on jeans - what a pain. Can't I got over to the pub in pink flannel pants with snowmen? Apparently not.

Back to it...

2005-02-01T08:04:00.000-05:00

this blog is supposed to be for travel adventures. it works well for that purpose, but i don't think so much right now for anything else. especially in light of things like this. so i am going to retire it for now

2005-02-01T08:00:00.000-05:00

things just don't seem to be getting any easier. everything is complicated and confusing and i am tired of dealing with it. and the guys are tired of dealing with me and my mood swings and breakdowns. and i'm tired of feeling guilty. life doesn't always work out the way people want. relationships run their course. ya, sometimes people get hurt - i think everyone has been on that end of a relationship at some point. and you know what? the person who made the decision to end the relationship doesn't get off much easier.

2005-01-31T09:30:00.000-05:00

OK, pretty much the best way to wake up this morning - logged onto MSN while still in bed, and Karlos was on!! (the guy from Edinburgh that I totally had a huge crush on and would've hit on had I not been with Sean) Anyway, so we've been chatting this morning, and making plans to meet up in Australia next year. Hehehehe ;)

Gotta get on the thesis now. He is headed to Park Guell to enjoy the sun and look over the city (bastard - I loved that place- one of my fav in Barcelona) and I am headed out to the library in the snow !!!!

2005-01-30T10:57:00.000-05:00

On my way to the library to work on the thesis but thought I'd post about the birthday first. So Daylen made an amazing dinner- roast beef, grilled asparagus, twice-baked potatoes, etc. It was SO yummy. And Derrick made a maple syrup cake which was so good too. So people came over, we ate and drank and just hung out here for a couple of hours. I opened my presents from the guys- one that I know was Kenny O's doing (bath stuff and lotion) and one from the rest of the boys, of the more adult/joke variety. Which I was mortified opening in front of Kara- I mean, I know she's a grown-up but I still think of her as young. She just laughed.

Anyway, went through a couple bottles of wine, case of beer, and then Lexie, Jen and I passed around the bottle of Malibu, doing shots until it was empty. We headed to the Spur about 10 (our cab driver was fairly hilarious) and more birthday shots there and a ton of ppl met up with us and it was fun times. A little karaoke, a few airbands, double fisting beers all night, some dancing, etc. A fun night all together. Got home and to bed about 3.

So I got up about 10 yesterday feeling great, started to do laundry and then realized I might've still been drunk. Oops. Went back to bed for a few hours, then out for (a late) breakfast with Fonzi and Jen. A fairly low-key day. Fonzi and I started to clean the kitchen and living room about 7 last night :) It was a mess. I knocked over a glass of red wine on our carpet on Friday (Which was hilarious as I was so 'whatever' about it, but if the guys had knocked it over I would've killed them. But it was my birthday)

Thesis today. Must get at'er.

2005-01-29T14:43:00.000-05:00

oh man. what a night. just got home from breakfast and need a few more hours of sleep and recovery before i can jump into the thesis.

will blog more later. it was an awesome night

2005-01-27T19:17:00.000-05:00

Man I am exhausted! Yesterday was a long day. Thesis meeting in the morning, class, library, made spaghetti sauce and pie for dinner, more thesis, Graham and Smitty for dinner (YAY for Smitty being here!!!) and then went to Bomber after the boys went and bottled their beer. It was a low-key night for me as I had a ton of things to do today. Still didn't get to sleep til super late tho, and was up by 7:30 this morning. Had my 8:30, breakfast with chica and then we both studied at DP until our respective tests this afternoon. Mine was OK I guess. She asked some stupid questions that don't really test the material which pissed me off.

Our sink finally got fixed yesterday. SO happy about that.

Now just working and resting up for tomorrow's festivities.

2005-01-25T16:37:00.000-05:00

So apparently in Puerto Plata, where we are going, you don't need to take malaria pills. Big yay! BUT you do need a Hep A vaccination, which I don't think I've had so I had to get that today. Arm is sore.

So it was a long day, but then I just came home to Daylen and Kenny in the kitchen washing dishes in a rubbermaid tub, and Fonzi sorting out all the recycling and beer bottles and bringing out the garbage. Made me very happy - we can actually cook tonight. And the plumber is apparently coming in the morning - there's no way the pipes are frozen I think. It's something else.

Stir-fry tonight- I am SO sick of plaza food, and honestly can't afford to eat it for a week. Too expensive.

I am getting excited for going out on my bithday Friday :) Should be a fun night.

2005-01-25T10:31:00.000-05:00

That was probably the first time ever in my 5 years here that I have gone to an 8:30 class looking like that. I had grad photos at 10, so I was showered, dressed in non pajama-y clothes, hair done and makeup on. Shocking. It is also probably the last time that I will look that good at an 8:30. Haha

The pics went OK I guess. The guy was making fun of me for blinking and stuff so much, but said I held the poses beautifully(gag). I said ususally if I'm half in the bag I take great pictures, but having a 9:50am appointment I wasn't ready to pound back a few beers quite yet.

Thesis work all day, and a Dr appt to get malaria pills for our trip to DR.

'24' last night was pretty awesome. I brought my books to Brooks' and did thesis work during commercials and after while they were playing poker. So I didn't feel too guilty for being out of the house.

Must get to it....

2005-01-24T01:35:00.000-05:00

OK- I have had a super productive weekend. But I still don't feel like I got enough done. And people keep asking me what I am doing in April after graduation. Assuming I ace my thesis and actually get to graduate this spring, I have not a bloody clue. It's totally stressing me out. STOP ASKING people!!

I worked all night Friday until midnight when Jen came over and we watched 'Stepmom'. Went to bed around 2:30 and was woken up by the phone at 4:30- the boys were calling me from Montreal. I guess all their huge plans to pick up young easy french girls went to shit and after the bar they called me instead. I was feeling the love :P

Yesterday I woke up to a blizzard! I only left the house once, to pick up some notes and stayed huddled up in here the rest of the day doing school work. Our pipes have been frozen since Wednesday and we haven't been able to use the kitchen sink at all. The only upside to it is we have the heat on in the house, which we haven't done yet this winter. (can't afford the same kind of bills as last year)

Then last night around 9 Vic came over and we chatted and caught up and watched Bridge on the River Kwai or something like that. Only with V do I watch these random movies. But it was really good - I liked it. He left around 1:30 and I just went to bed.

Worked most of today until the boys came home and just seemed to think that the world revolves around them. ugh . I am frustrated. I moved from working in my room to the living room today for a change of scenery and had CMT on to listen to as I worked. Well of course the second one of them gets home they drop their shit in the living room that I had cleaned, grab the clicker from me and put on football. GRRRRRRR!!!! And I get bitched at for the pipes not being fixed, like I can do anything about it. I am as frustrated with it as anyone else. MORE SO because I was here all weekend and had to try and make myself food without clean dishes or anything.

Anyway, they want to have a P&P night tonight but I think I am just going to go to bed. I have a lot of work to do before the end of the week, especially if I want to do bomber on Wednesday. (Friday is a given since it's my birthday) And there is some talk of The Ranch on Thursday. I don't know how I could say no.... so it's going to be a every day at the library doing thesis kind of week I think, so I can semi-justify going out :)

2005-01-21T23:20:00.000-05:00

Dee, the awesome Aussie I spent time with in Dublin is on MSN right now. I don't know if I am going to talk to him or not. We had an amazing time in Ireland, and emailed a bit afterwards but I kinda stopped emailing when I met Sean. It just seemed, well, not right I guess. I hated Sean being in touch with the Gillian (Jillian?) girl he'd met in Greece, I didn't want him to feel the same way I did. Cuz it wasn't just a buddy-buddy thing going on- I contemplated changing some of my travel plans so we could spend a bit more time together. Anyway... we'll see :)

2005-01-21T22:41:00.000-05:00

OK, how sad is this? http://msn.foxsports.com/nhl/story/3342040

But I get it, if I was going to die this year I would also be pretty pissed that I didn't get to watch hockey for one last season.

Still doing homework. Hello boring life!

2005-01-20T21:44:00.000-05:00

we skipped wings on monday, and are making up for it tonight. and i cannot wait! i am starving

so besides the deal that i posted after the bar, bomber last night was awesome. it was 'wild wild west' night and we all dressed the part. ( i was in jean skirt, boots, stripy dress shirt tied up showing my belly and pigtails) and they played some country songs which was awesome. especially my new favorite 'save a horse, ride a cowboy'. hahaha!!!

today was breakfast at mel's, class, and then thesis work. i just finally got out of my jammes and had a shower.

our kitchen sink is clogged and not even a whole bottle of draino has helped. so we hopefully have a plumber coming tomorrow. and until we get it fixed i'm not cooking- we have enough dishes sitting on the counter.

i'm here myself this weekend which will be good to get work done. day is gone with neuf to leamington, fonzi and brooks and a few other guys are going to visit smitty in montreal, lexie is going home to kingston, derrick will be home working, etc

i'm having dinner with Lori and Kara tomorrow, and movie date with Vic sat or sun (YAY for seeing Vic for the first time in over a year!) and lotsa lotsa school work to keep me company.

wing time soon. my belly is growling

2005-01-20T02:53:00.000-05:00

ugh! have i mentioned how much i DON't like girls? two nights out in the past week, 2 different guys, same girl has ruined the chance of anything. Shitty Ass!

At least the guy tonight asked for my number afterwards as the bar closed. But seriously, what the hell is her problem.?? or is it my problem for talking to guys she likes/has liked, etc????

frustratiNG!

2005-01-19T01:46:00.000-05:00

Ok, so I actually went to all of my classes today, went to the library to work on my thesis, and did homework tonight.

So I rewarded myself times 2!!!! Jen and I booked out trip for reading week- yay ocean and beach and 24hr all inclusive drinks for a week! And then we went to see 'The Phantom of the Opera' which was pretty awesome. Some of the singing wasn't quite up to par, but the sets and the costumes and stuff was pretty amazing. Good all around.

Anyway, not much else new. Just class and stuff. Tomorrow is bomber, and it might be the last one for awhile, at least the last full one. I have a midterm next Thursday, and then crazy midterm week 2 weeks later.

But it is my birthday next Friday! I don't know 100% what we are doing but maybe drinks here and then out to the Spur or something. Should be fun regardless, as long as Jen and Lexie are here. (Bristow calls us 'Charlie's Angels' b/c we're hardly ever apart) I am so lucky that my only 2 female friends, who I met separately, like eachother so much. Makes my life so much better.

ANyway, have to go to bed.